My older brother is a world-class programmer. One day when we were playing games together as usual... he asks, "Can I try an RTA... on you??" An RTA (real time attack) is game terminology for trying to clear a game in an little as possible time.
It's been four years since you've seen the man who took you in. The man you love... Surely he will be mad that you ignored his calls to catch up. But you don't want to return to your former relationship. The time is ripe for your harvest.